Which Way Do I Go?

This journey has been a process. A learning process for sure, but also a shedding process. Shedding away of old ideas and traditions for the truth. I can now see why people raised in false religions because their entire country is founded upon, immersed in, and taught there religion as truth, can find it difficult and challenging to let go of the ideology of their faith.

I know I was one of those people. Raised in Christianity, believing all other religions are wrong, missing the truth, or outright cults, I never would have thought I would challenge my own faith and beliefs. I first had to dismiss all the things that I used as excuses to explain away facts from history or archeology. I used the old excuse that all these people are being used by the devil to deceive me.

It wasn't until one day I really put it together and asked myself the question could Paul have created his own religion? I stated to my husband what if . . . What if Paul made this entire vision up, creating the New Testament as the founding blocks of Christianity?  How different is his version of truth from that of Muhammad who also had a vision from god with a golden ladder coming down from heaven and giving him his version of the new truth, the Koran?

Never in my wildest dreams would I really confirm that Paul really wrote an entire new religion to the Gentiles using Jesus as the centerpiece. After all, Jesus was a torah observant Jew, he came only to the Jews to teach them torah and to return to the ways of Judaism and torah.

Other things I found interesting is the book of Revelation, it becomes more apparent to me that Paul is more than likely the author of this book as well. According to Judaism, all the things that Christians are waiting for Anti-Christ to do are things the coming Messiah (prophet) is to fulfill. What better way to mislead people away from the truth than to portray the coming truth as lie.

The deeper I follow the truth, the more I see the lie. Now, which way do I go for conversion. Since we are in Texas and I really dislike it here for a number of reasons, I know that I need to move near a synagogue in order to begin the process of conversion.

In times past I always only prayed and waited, but have learned through Judaism we are able to make decisions on our own and still pray. I don't have to feel like I need to sit here for years for something to open, but that I can begin the process and see what happens.