Deciding what to do and where to go is always a dilemma. I am contemplating applying for a job, but I am also not so sure I want to do that at this time. It would mean I would probably have to quit going to school because I already know I would not have enough time to work, keep up with the household, assist Mylei with homework, and find the time to do my own school work. It puts me in a bit of a quandary. It may be our only chance to relocate as it seems entirely hopeless that my husband will ever be called for a job, and in these bad times, women get hired over men. I just know that once I begin working, I will never be able to quit and I just hated working so late and never spending any time with my family.
Since it seems to only take about 48 hours for hubby to get his thanks but no thanks on almost every job he applies for it seems a bit discouraging in advancing forward, but I also know that HaShem may put us to the test to see how much of an effort we will put forth to accomplish our conversion. Sure we could do it right now by just saying the word and move into Houston, but I do not want to live in Houston for so many reasons, but the horrible high crime and outrageous housing prices keep me from doing so, after all, I cannot even afford to live in the required Eruv.
As we search the Orthodox Union for synagogues we look at the area for affordability to live in the Eruv, with also a job market, a safe and family friendly area with outdoor activities we can all enjoy. We finally found an area we feel fits those requirements that would be a best fit for our family, but the Rabbi just moved to another location, so finding out about conversion may now be a problem and the quick rejection of employment applications isn't helpful either.
Is this a closed door or a door we are to pursue to see how much we really want to convert?
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